Friday, November 27, 2009

Incompleteness Theorem

from Knatz.comMeta-Modules2003 06 05

Knatz.com was laid out in four frames. The bottom frame linked the two main sections: the minor section of modules about the author and the major section of modules about the universe, about society, epistemology, man, god, and so forth. The top frame highlighted a quote, typically a pk quote. The right frame displayed the content for a particular module, and the left frame linked to meta-modules: modules about Knatz.com: key words, site maps ... and the following:

Incompleteness Theorem

Heisenberg theorized that any experimental observation of the fundamental particles of matter must always remain incomplete. In order to observe an electron, the electron must be lit. The minimum amount of light that can make contact with an electron is one photon. If you bounce a photon off an electron, both particles must change velocity: the photon will maintain c speed but will alter direction: the electron will have both aspects of its velocity altered: its speed and its direction. The light shows where the electron was, but one can't now know where it is. Observing the position relocates it.

The argument boils down to this: if you know the particle's position, you can't know its velocity; if you know the particle's velocity, you can't know its position. Our knowledge of matter's time line must remain incomplete.

pk's life and work has its own incompleteness. I began my first novel when I was ten. My mother served as my secretary, typing from my dictation. I even sat her on my knee at one point.

An hour or so and a few pages into the story, my composition ground to a halt. I was written out: didn't know what the next line was ... Mom had gone off to make dinner. And there my "novel" remains: funny, clever (for a kid) ... and utterly, as so many school grades would thereafter record, incomplete. I've posted a fragment of that fragment, The Haunted House, here: 2009

When I won the round robin fencing tournament in college gym class (1957), I paraded myself before Coach Irv deKoff, expecting him to beg me to join the team. "You're great at creating openings," he said, "But you can't finish." Dismissed.

In 1966 great GBS scholar Dan Laurence tried to hire me to be his grad school reader. In twenty years of teaching graduate school, he had never had a student like me: the vocabulary, the interest, the passion ... Oh, no, NYU said, He has "Incompletes."

By the following year I had pretty well blocked out my
doctoral thesis. By 1971 I still hadn't gotten anything reflected back to me by the English Department that I recognized as signaling understanding. Certainly they knew that my subject was "Shakespeare's Sonnets": but they showed no inkling that I was saying anything significant: not only to the Sonnets but to Western ahem, thought. Boy, were they expert though at interrupting, at misreading, at misrepresenting ... (And that's another thing wrong with you, Knatz: you don't write in our jargon! You read like you were writing for the public, not for English experts!) Translate: You're not arcane enough to be unintelligible: like us!

(Translate further: You are failing to pick up the code by which we, representing (kleptocratic) English, destroy language and the possibility of communication.) (Indeed, it was Dan Laurence himself who said that to me most clearly.)

By 1970 I was corresponding with Ivan Illich and founding the world's first attempt to offer networking to the public: bypass the experts, connect people directly. Oh, no, no. No kleptocrat could tolerate a networked public. If the public had free access to its own information, then how could they be controlled? But this time it wasn't just the schools and universities that didn't cooperate in their own upgrading: the public didn't cooperate in their own best interests either!

Now, 2003, I try harder than ever to communicate some of the things the experts made sure the public never saw published from me. I start a module ... and four hours later have to go shopping. Before I return to it, another module must be started, then another.

Sure it's me: I don't finish. But I also know that the closer I got to any finish the more experts would be tying my ankles, dipping me in cement, stealing my water bottle, my rations ... It takes two to tango: a society to folk dance.

Who suffers more: Jesus, hanging on the cross? or the kleptocrats who put him there: punishment for trying to save us: the kleptocrats, who, by [our] interference, are therefore not saved?

Well, in Jesus' case, obviously, his suffering is terrible. But it's over in a day. Mine is nothing that bad: and over in a life time. But the suffering of the public in tolerating the crucifixion of saviors is unending. It's multiplied by billions ... over millennia!

If we had crucified Jesus before he was a dozen lines into his Sermon on the Mount, many left alive could still intuit what got interrupted: at least the gist: get it ... oh ... five percent right.

If we read what's extant of Lysander Spooner, can't we likewise guess what he might also have said had we not stood with our thumb in our ass while the government bankrupted him? Couldn't a half dozen other people have picked up the baton and tried to run with it? Tucker did. Moses Harmon ... But was it a half-dozen?

Ivan Illich's books were taken out of print, new ones not published, while they were best sellers! The bulk of my writing has never been published. Not one scholar has ever approached me with a clear model of what my thesis was! Not even ten percent of it. Only thirty years after FLEX had the phones disconnected have ... perhaps three people ... shown me that they get the gist of FLEX. That number is no greater with regard to Macroinformation
five years after starting to turn myself inside out over it.

Life is like an artist's studio, full of half-finished sketches.
Proust

Do my incomplete modules annoy you? Finish them. Jesus is on the cross? You talk peace: and forgiveness: and cooperation ... You'll be crucified too? So what? It will shorten your suffering: give you a joy you've never known.

I start to recapitulate Bateson's rap on the limits of logic ... I don't finish repeating what Bateson said? It's in his book. You fill in the rest. Email me your draft. I'll put it up: or tell you why not.

The thousand-odd text files here represent only a fraction of the notes I have for modules. Show up. Bring money. Bring a secretary. Ask me what my gibberish meant before I croak. A large part of it is already lost to me too, but I can recreate my original insight in some. And it doesn't matter because trying will stimulate a dozen new insights for every one lost!

The shaman bids the warriors torment the guy who says that they're wasting their time cutting themselves and bleeding all over the ground, trying to make it rain. The shaman has tenure. So do the elder warriors. The would-be reformer has nothing but lumps.

Peter dies of starvation, holding his finger in the dyke. The dyke gives way. The sea reclaims its own. Whoever doesn't drown loses his farm. It's Peter's fault, right? All the people who didn't help, didn't bring him a sandwich, can blame Peter for their faulty engineering.

Who suffers? Everybody.



OK, so what about the theorem?

That part was just a joke.



Other "incompleteness" modules from pk domains:Incompleteness: More Than One — from my Thinking Tools
Ivy League — from my Journal



2006 02 24

Years have a way of slipping by before I complete so much as my incompleteness statement(s). I really must get back to them. The idea of incompleteness relates importantly but differently to each of my domains:This module and the immediately preceding link aren't a bad start for K. ... but incompleteness also relates importantly to Deschooling and to Macroinformation.

Again, I emphasize: pk's three non-business domains are essentially about information, in three kinds: personal, public, theoretical. pk stars at K. Ivan Illich convivial networking, that is, public information mapping, stars at InfoAll. And information itself, particularly complex emergent information, stars at Macroinformation. Incompleteness relates to the three differently:

K. is incomplete because I haven't finished it. I haven't finished individual modules. I haven't finished critiquing the most elemental ideas. I haven't finished relating the most important facts. I haven't fished the overall layout.

Deschooling is named to suggest all information; but that's complex, even self-contradictory. Not all information is public business. What's in our minds, like what's in our underwear, is private: until we, not some kleptocrat, some SS agent, choose to pronounce it publicly. I dispute a society's right to know too much about families, I dispute families right to know to much about its individual members. ... Ah, but if the individual, family or individual individual, wishes to announce something, then by God, there should be a way to do it: cheaply and without any possibility of censorship. No one has to read your announcement, no one has to believe it. But you have the right to announce it. TV, newspapers, and the Pentagon/CERN's internet fail: by being expensive. The public cannot become legitimate until it sponsors, automatically and voluntarily, no coercion, a cheap way to publish. Owning and operating a PC with DSL is not cheap, not cheap enough. Only FLEX could have been.

Macroinformation talks about quantifying the macroinformation content of artifacts. But such quantifications, were anyone but pk interested in them, would necessarily remain incomplete. (Even Ted Williams didn't quite touch the right wall of possibility in hitting excellence, to repeat Stephen Jay Gould's example.)

This years history books prove that last years history books were not complete. Next years will prove that this years are still not complete.

I argue that four centuries of Shakespeare criticism have still not completely plumbed the complexities even of the two word oxymoron "salad days." I take it closer to the right wall. But pk doesn't touch the right wall either. I don't believe anyone ever will. (And if we had Shakespeare's own testimony, I can't imagine him bothering to take it even as far as I have!)

From InfoAll.org: Incompleteness: Not Quite "All" Information
From Macroinformation.org: Incompleteness in Macroinformation




2008 06 09

I just added the following note to one of many many imperfect modules. I wish I could magically add it to all it applies to. I wish I could magically perfect all those modules so they wouldn't need it. But I don't really mean that: life isn't like that, evolution isn't like that. Our theology has corrupted our sense. Man is not perfectible, neither is god, and neither are my modules: though they are, truly, possibly, improvable: while I live: and that is finite.

I have something to say here. It's not easy. If I thought my point was already generally understood I wouldn't be bothering. I am not at all happy with my draft so far. But, as is my habit, I've already added it to Knatz.com. Taking it down for polishing would be more work than the polishing. Glance at it. If you think you know what I mean, you probably don't. If you do, help out, damn it. Either way, check back. I may have found a way to say it so it works.


And even this module, particularly the postscripts, could use a lot more editing.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Murderers' Row

Adding to Knatz.com / Teaching / Society / NoHier / A-Conviviality /

Jail Stories
Murderers' Row

I just mentioned Bob Heartsong being my upper bunk mate in the Palm Beach jail. And I told how he was accused of murdering his wife and how the murder was written about on a deck of jail bird playing cards our neighbor had.

But Bob wasn't the only famous (accused) murderer in the joint. There were at least four guys preparing to be tried for murder. One of them was being tried while I was there. Every day he'd come back from the trail and watch himself, Ron Samuels, on the evening TV news as we ate dinner.

Bob said he didn't do it, and I believe him: completely. Ron Samuels was an egregious prick: and I bet he did do it. He was accused of hiring hit men to murder his wife. They botched it, she was in a wheel chair. She was at his trial, daily. Ron owned car dealerships from the Keys to Tallahassee: he sold 5,000 cars a day! a multi-billionaire. But that wasn't enough for him. He also imported cocaine. Etc. He caught his wife moving some of his millions off shore into numbered accounts with her boyfriend. Maybe she needed a little butchering. But Ron was a son of a bitch regardless of what she was.

Ron grabbed me once, telling me forcibly how much he hated me. I could have really gotten him for that. The jailers want an exclusive on the violence. State monopoly.

Fred Keller was another son of a bitch accused-wife-murderer. I don't know much about him, but he was an obnoxious wanker too. The keen thing was though: Fred owned the land the Gun Club Road Palm Beach jail sat on. He was also a multi-billionaire, but in Palm Beach real estate. Fed prisoners like me were guests of the fed. State prisoners like Bob, Ron, Fred (and about-to-be-mentioned Charlie), had to rent their jail cell from the state. Fred had to pay to be locked up, a couple of bucks a week; but the county, and the state, had to pay rent to him! Enormous rent, I don't doubt.

Charlie Mac was a great guy, I thought. His late wife's son demanded that he, Charlie, finance some heroin deal for him. He wanted seven figures in capital, or was it big six figures: $700,000 or a couple of million, something like that. Charlie told his no good step son, No. He also told him he didn't have it. The step son told him to take a mortgage on the beach house, he really need some big capital. He pulled a gun, he threatened Charlie. Charlie went and got his own gun, came back, calmly executed his step son. He then called the cops, told them what happened.

The cops should have checked it out, and given him a medal. But no. They threw this old man down on the floor, roughed him up, and cuffed him. Charlie too was waiting for his trial. I liked Charlie a lot.

I sure hope Bob and Charlie had successful defenses. I have Bob's address, I don't know Charlie Mac's whole last name: McSomething.


Above I reveal my opinions concerning the characters of the above accuseds. I don't know who did what. I don't know for a fact that Bob did not kill his wife. I report my impressions. When Ron grabbed me, he was expressing his opinion about my character, my worth. He didn't know me. I doubt that he's capable of knowing me. I don't claim infallibility that I know him: I emphasize that I do not know him. Neither do I want to know him. The damn government forced us into each other's company, all of us presided over fourth grade drop outs. You have to fail intelligence tests before you'll be admitted to law school, you have to prove yourself far-stupider-yet before the fascists will put you in change of those jailed by the state. If you just stumble upon this blog you will not likely know why I was arrested. A Martian could stumble into a church and not know who Jesus was or Paul or why they were arrested. Think what you will. I'm telling these stories, sharing impressions.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Cap Eraser

Adding to Knatz.com / Teaching / Society / NoHier / A-Conviviality /

Jail Stories

Cap Eraser

I was proud of many things I did and was and endured in jail. Most of them I don't expect any human to understand. But one proud defiance had an audience: was appreciated, talked about. The grape vine carried the story within hours. To wit: I smuggled something from Palm Beach into the Miami detention center!

When I was arrested the FBI / sheriff / goon team handcuffed me behind my back. The jail took everything I was wearing down to my briefs, gave me thin jail duds, and refrigerated me in a succession of pens, cells, jails. They laid a ton of paper work on me, copies of all their legalisms for violating the Constitution: I hadn't "done" anything; I'd written something — which they didn't know how to read: and didn't want me teaching them. Eventually I found a sort of a new home when they moved me into their old man's dorm in the Palm Beach jail. Ah, nice humans were among the oafs and gorillas, some smart people: accused murderers, DUIs, gun runners, shoplifters ... and who knew how many philosophers, writers, revolutionaries, anarchists. (Not many I don't think, but I doubt I was the only one.) My new roomies initiated me back to the good side of civilization: I was loaned books, good books. I was treated to cups of actual instant coffee: the jails served a hot beverage but it sure wasn't coffee. Bob, my bunk mate (he had seniority for the upper bunk: fine by me) introduced me to Sudoku. He gave me whole books of puzzles, 90% still to be solved. He had a pencil to lean me, and even had an extra cap eraser!

Pencils and cap erasers were available through the commissary: to those who had money on account. Actually receiving anything there was an ordeal, the order form was a Procrustean computer affair, like learning Chinese to be able to fill out so you'd actually get what you wanted and not just forfeit your precious commissary balance. (The commissary stole 80% of my money once I did have an account.)

Finally I was moved to the Miami Detention Center. I'd looked forward to it. A veteran Miami con couldn't wait to get out of Palm Beach and get back to Miami. He said everything was better, the food, the cells: and Miami was less refrigerated than Palm Beach. All true, I discovered. But: Miami's commissary didn't carry cap erasers. Cap erasers were not allowed in Miami. Time was passing. I'd been a jail for months. I'd become addicted to Sudoku. I'd managed to find pencils and Miami even had a pencil sharpener: you don't take any such things for granted once the government decides that you haven't had enough interference between school and taxes and the military. If the jail doesn't manage to kill you in the first days, and believe me, they try, you may just live: on and on. Trust me: a cap eraser is the difference between Sudoku torture and pleasure.

Back in Palm Beach for a few days, Bob gave me an extra cap eraser of his. How could I smuggle back to Miami with me? I figured I could swallow it, then try to poke through my shit over the next several days, hoping to fish it back out, clean it off, and use it. But I thought of another possibility: all that paper work they were forever dumping on me, telling the world I was a terrorist, a mass murderer, a danger to society, the federal marshalls had to carry your paper work for you. You took your legal papers from your cell to the holding cell, then from the holding cell to the process in and out area. There the legal papers were taken from you. You were told you'd get it back. Sure enough, the first few times they did give my paper work back to me, once back in the jail at the other end of the loop: until Palm Beach finally stole all my legal papers on one of my many trips to see the judge in Fort Pierce, Palm Beach providing the local motel. So: I stuck my cap eraser in amidst my legal papers, hoping it would still be there, accessible to me, at the other end.

Sure enough. Palm Beach strips me, searches me, looks up my ass, in my hair, in my mouth, under my teeth ... but I'd already passed the eraser in with the papers. The papers get handed by the jail to the marshals. Back in Miami the marshals hand my papers to the Miami jailors. I stripped again, searched again, issued new Miami duds, shoved back in the holding cell. Ah. The guards bring our "property" to return to us. I recognize my bag. It's got my novels in it, my Sudoku, my pencils, a candy bar ... I wait and grab it when allowed. Out comes my Sudoku, out comes my pencil, I eat the candy bar. Then I see my manilla envelop on the counter. Next time out of the holding cell I ask if I can take back my legal papers now. I pat the package down. I feel no trace of a cap eraser. Oh, well. It was a good idea, a good try. But they found it, confiscated it. Who knows how they'll punish me now. But back in the holding cell with my property bag and my legal papers, I go through the papers carefully. There it is. Exactly where I put it!

I insert the cap eraser over the pencil end. I proceed with my Sudoku. Within minutes, I'm noticed. "Where's he get that cap eraser?" "How'd he do that?" The guard heard the murmurs, looked up. The guard saw my cap eraser immediately. "How'd he get that?" The guard shook his head. But smiled. He wasn't going to confiscate it even though he saw it. He was going to allow me that point.

One of the guys in the holding cell was a Rasta-man I recognized from my floor: 7 Charlie West or some such designation. He was looking at my cap eraser and shaking his head in awe.

Weeks later, he still say as he saw me coming, "You Hannibal Lecter, man. You a genius!"

Wonderful. How I love that Rasta-man for his admiration, and his particular expression of it. I identify with Jesus. I identify with Galileo. And I very much identify with Hannibal Lecter (and also with his creator, Thomas Harris. Lecter is smarter than all the fascists put together. They make him suffer but he knows joys they cannot be informed of. And when we get to know him a bit, Harris introduces sympathies for his "monster" we wouldn't have believed possible. As with Puzo's Godfather, Don Corleone is more moral than the cops and lawyers who call him a crook. He doesn't well in his world in his way.

I don't do well in the world, but I do do what I do in my way. Perfectly reasonable responses, if only facts are allowed. But society never admits facts, except facts of the kleptocrats' own choosing.


Bob, my bunk mate in Palm Beach, Bob Heartsong, was charged with killing his wife. Some guys in our wing had a deck of cards where each card referred to some famous murder. Don't you know Bob was right there! It was his new Mrs. who kept him supplied in Sudoku puzzles and Bernard Cornwell novels, all of which got passed to me. Poor Bob loaned me a sweat shirt in S8C for which I'll be forever thankful, but of course the jail stole it from me before I could return it to him. There's a good reminder: I owe him a letter as well as a sweat shirt and another thank you.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Jail Stories

When the FBI arrested me I couldn't wait to get back online to tell about it. I dreamed that I'd use my trial as a sounding board for deschooling. My public defender was crystal clear in assuring me that the public's betrayal of trust was only beginning: I wouldn't be able to fit an idea or a fact into the trial sideways. He was not there to help me but to serve as a cover for the fascists doing whatever they want: he'd make sure that the judge pissed with his left hand if that what the kleptocracy's Koran prescribed: and that's all. No justice was wanted, no justice would be allowed; unless you mean by "justice," the predator kleptocrats having their way.

The court knocked down one domain, one of five, and the rest toppled with it, including my business, online since the early 1990s. Somewhere along the way I learned that the FBI had stolen my computers. It was nearly two years later before they returned them to me: disassembled, working after a fashion, but no longer coordinated, no longer networked, no longer seamlessly sharing Mac OS X AND 9 (so I could continue to use my old DTP software, inoperable under Mac OS X). Back home, my thousands of files online destroyed, I had no way of writing. Scribble served me once, but no longer. I needed to word-process, and to FTP: to publish: to resume my function of warning the world: like Jeremiah ... like John ... like Jesus.

Too late now I don't doubt, though perhaps it wasn't too late when I first tried full time, tried to make a profession of reform, in 1970. Bucky Fuller had said that 1968 was mankind's fulcrum year, the year by which we'd either have learned how to live or begin suffering the consequences of being too late. I'd hoped that Bucky's figure was soft by two years: or that we had figured it out by 1968 and were just getting rolling in 1970. But we'd figured nothing, and nothing rolled, except more kleptocratic hubris.

My son found me an iMac at eBay (never forget that eBay plagiarizes my FLEX of 1970) for $40. A few days later I was busy transcribing my notes from jail, written on scraps, on napkins, with bits of pencil stub only jailed Americans would recognize as usable into new FileMaker databases: jail stories. And there they've remained. My best jail stories are trivial compared to what got censored at Knatz.com as a domino effect from the fed trashing my AgainstHierarchy.org. I'm again writing like crazy, posting stuff to blogs; but I feel like I'm falling further behind the more I write. The parole people have threatened me if I remount. I've been remounting anyway: but not wholesale: and I can't afford economically to put up what I have. And a blog is not a domain, let along a half a dozen distinct domains. Still, a dozen blogs are doing for me the best I can.

But boy do I look forward to telling my jail stories. They'll appear here, at my PaulKnatz blog, soon, I trust. But they're not re-postings from Knatz.com; they'll be first tellings.



Ferinstance

There are none more profound than this one:

I may burn in hell forever for this.

The speaker is Dave Lee Brannen, Federal Public Defender. No, he's not talking about me, the felon, burning; he's confessing that he himself is an enemy of God in refusing to help the court see that I, Paul Knatz, am a servant of Jesus, a messenger of God, a 1970 inventor of the internet ... a public servant: sabotaged, railroaded by kleptocrats, by thieves. PS: Dave got a $5,000 bonus from the fed for tricking me into confessing.

Understand: I confessed for a two-sided reason:
1) I needed to update Knatz.com. (I didn't know yet that circumstances would combine to censor it as well as the specific satire, a revenge fantasy, I'd been arrested for writing and emailing to NYU's English department.)
2) Dave was making it clear to me that a Palm Beach jury would be no more likely to understand what I was saying than the judge was. Therefore: I was looking at a probable forty years in jail, age 69, with sky high blood pressure, going blind, already deaf. No: I had to get back to Knatz.com.

But of course that too was a betrayal: they took it all away.

Then again, it was taken away before I was born, before Jesus was born, more than ten thousand years ago: once we'd way-over-bred. (Actually, it's older than that: the Late Pleistocene Overkill occurred before agriculture was developed. Still, agriculture is a key accelerator in human overpopulation.)



Too Stupid To Live!

Broke, arrested, assigned a federal public defender, I quickly assessed Dave Lee Brannen to be the most intelligent lawyer I've ever spoken to for longer than a minute: the only intelligent lawyer I'd ever spoken to for longer than five minutes. He seemed to follow everything I said about my life, my dedication to deschooling, my discipleship to Ivan Illich / Jesus, my philosophical anarchism. I explained how Illich, imagining Christ, became a critic of human institutions. His deconstruction of the Church was followed by an exposure of the cultural imperialism implicit in new American policies toward South America – Chile didn't need American roads or GM trucks, it needed to be allowed to find its own solutions. That thesis was followed by his indictment of compulsory schooling. (And that was followed by a deconstruction of the health industry ...) Dave Brannen followed how I offered Illich's design for cybernetic public data bases of resources to replace schools – a map of the community is closer to God than a cop telling you what to do, when and where to do it, and what you must pay. Freedom accompanies open markets; compulsion defeats markets and freedom. Dave followed my contribution to see that local learning networks could become data bases for every kind of resource and that local networks could become inter-networked. Dave followed precisely my conclusion, given my experience, that civilization was God and Nature's solution to human over-population, that civilization was Nature's tool to purge over-reaching man from the biosphere, he smiled and laughed at my terse conclusion that we are
Too Stupid To Live!

That was in October 2006, our brief meeting of the 13th being followed by further visits. But Dave Lee Brannen made it clear to me that the court did not and would not follow those points and that a Palm Beach jury, of my peers ha ha ha, would be very hostile to anyone who disapproved of their imperial kleptocracy. Dave assured me that he, though he expected to
burn in hell forever for this,
would do nothing to help me wedge relevant facts or points into the trial, the fed's fictions would prevail, and I would go to jail for forty years; unless I pleaded guilty, said I was wrong. Then the judge might sentence me to the minimum punishment: 15 months.

Well, if I couldn't use my trail as a stage for my points, then I had to get back online and update Knatz.com: add these new stories to my already existing 2,500 text file indictment of my society already online. I didn't know that the judge would censor my letters to my university, I had no idea that my domains host would trash all of my domains, that my existing voice would be further silenced. I didn't know that the FBI was monkeying with my computers, destroying their synergy. I didn't know that the fed, from the FBI to the court, was destroying my business or that the parole board would join the tag team to keep me from remounting my domains.

Just before the sentencing trial Dave told to my face the first typical lawyerly lie: he said these federal court people, judges, prosecutors were
intelligent people.
Then he folded in a truth
They have no sense of humor.

Then he warned me, if I wanted a light sentence, don't tell them that they are

Too Stupid To Live!




This one I just learned this morning, 2009 11 22. I quote a current email from my girlfriend of 1957. Jackie says:I saw online when searching for your name that there is a notice that you were arrested and all questions should be directed to your son, Brian. That is a hell of a thing to have out there in public.
You're a strong person to deal with all of this.
News to me. My son hasn't informed me of any collusion. But then he hasn't said anything about how he let my domains evaporate: he'd taken over paying my bills, but didn't pay that specific one.

He had all my online files and easily could have put back the ones the fed wasn't censoring. Hell, he could have put back the ones the fed was censoring and pointed out the fed's misreading!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Redhead Revisited

Actuality OK; Sentience Taboo

Mid-October I posted a few drafts of the following at IonaArc:Escorting a cute red head back to our table I found the aisle blocked by a single wide body. I skipped holding her chair that time and let her go around by herself. But the guy turned out to have been lying in ambush. He grabbed Red and squeezed her.

Red didn't seem flustered. She sat down and said to her friend sitting across from her (next to me), "I just got a grab."

I was frustrated because I'd been elaborately courtly to Red all day: bowing at the end of a dance, offering her my arm as we walked, holding her chair ... and Mr. Wide's heterosexual aggression I already found boorish. I'd allowed myself to be finessed out of the action and was frustrated and tongue tied. But Red's friend didn't say anything either. The rest of our table seconded the silence. But back home I posted a report immediately (at IonaArc): and asked the following ethical conundra:

What should Red have done or said? What should I have done or said? What should our friends have done or said? What should our senior social have done once I told our CEO?
I told the incident through a couple of drafts. First I used the redhead's given name, then I used a single initial, then I renamed her "Red." One draft offered a single initial for the Widebody. Each draft made a series of attempts to evoke Red's femininity. A few years ago a girl friend called me "the Michelangelo of erotica": that's the well-developed muscle I was further exercising (as I'll quote below).

One friend who had been present refused to comment. Red herself had a severe reaction: which she did not elaborate or explain: she merely broke a date with me and said she didn't want to talk to me. Why? I don't know. But I'll guess below.

The balance of this I'll develop scrapbook fashion: foundation, background, details, reflections ... here, at the PaulKnatz blog: it's become a personal story.



My suspicion has been confirmed. Ahn, the founder of our social and my dear buddy, told me that Red's objection had been to my using the first initial of her given name while I referred to her female features. I intend to quote the drafts, let you judge for yourself, but first: Ahn, who read the drafts, assured me that had I said those things about her, she would have been flattered.

That's the reaction I see as appropriate. I was using the post to raise the questions and also to further my flirting with Red. Now though the female features I'd mentioned remain the same, I see her mean little mouth, her narrow petulant vision, and I am repelled.

But here's what I wrote: Draft 2:B.'s mammary endowment is everything it should be for her size: but he didn't grab her boobs. Neither did he grope her cute pixie behind (B.'s best feature to my eye (next to her red hair and turned-up up Celtic nose)).Draft 2 is what I presume offended Red. Cautiousness to over-cautiousness seems to be characteristic of her.

Draft 3:Understand: information is difference: and as I touch B. at her waist, or at her shoulder blade, or back and forth as the dancing requires, the difference between her narrow waist and her complementarily-shaped upper body twinkles the male-est narrow of my male-most marrow. In other words, this woman is oh-so-female! This woman is cute!Now that's erotic writing!

2010 Sept 09 My girl friend made a comment about Red, actual name, Barbara, yesterday that made me decided to come here and ID her, at least by given name. Barbara Hester pisses lots of people off (as do I) so I no longer protect the privacy which she abuses herself anyway.

What I find most intriguing this bulk of a year later is this group of seniors' reluctance to see a crime as something mentionable. Barbara didn't object, so no crime was committed. If the Germans killed all Jews and no Nazis objected, would there have been no crime? In their world, apparently; but not in mine.

2011 10 24 Cheez, another update earned:

A New Year after the original incident Barbara said to me that she wanted to let bygones be bygones. She wouldn't dance with me anymore, but she'd cease the cold shoulder. She'd still sat at my table; she just wouldn't make eye contact, or talk to me: I'd ceased asking her if she wanted to meet me at other dances: we had been dance dating, we were good dance partners, i'd been courting her, like her a lot, let everyone know it. But now these couple of years later, she still pretends I'm invisible. There are additional details I'll skip – to get to tonight:

Duffers Bar has been offering line dancing since last March or so. I go sometimes, Barbara and her present dance partner, Roy, go regularly. A couples' oval dance was offered. The males on the inside of the oval moved counterclockwise, the females on the outside moved clockwise. Each male dances one set of steps with each female. I circled up to Barbara. She saw me. She froze: and refused to do the pair with me. Why? What the hell does she imagine happened those couple of years ago. She was boorish then, she's insisting on being boorish now. I said to her, "Why are you being so ridiculous?"
"Kiss my ass," she hissed at me! And she subtracted herself from the circle!

She was disturbing the dance, being rude, being obscene. I didn't notice anyone objecting.

It's embarrassing to live in Highlands County Florida, but then I've always been embarrassed to live where ever I've lived. America, democracy, Christianity ... all sham. All hypocrisy.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Semantic Dictionary

from Knatz.comTeaching / Scholarship / Glossary1999 02 08

Semantic Dictionary
Definitions, Daffynitions, Ironies, Wisecracks ...
High seriousness mixes here with comedy.
ArgumentIt has long been my habit to use the word argument in its scholarly sense: thesis, or general point being made. That usage does not make me elsewhere avoid using the same "word" to mean "combat over an issue." But I worry about readers who won't make the distinction. (Why should I? Who but a sophisticated reader would be here?)
What's really nutty to the normal speaker of the natural language is to try to guess what computer programmers mean by the word: their use is conspicuously "artificial."
Some people—always other people—twist the meanings of words,
especially during the course of an argument.

SI Hayakawa



Artistone who is willing to undress in publicOnce you start undressing in public, as Thomas Wolf observed, You can't go home again.Good artistone who undresses the public as well as himselfPop artistone who dresses himself and the audience the way they want to be dressedselling as well as buying their vanitiesGreat artistone who undresses the public and is somehow praised for itSupreme artistone who makes the public strip without even being aware of itOf course opinion as to which artists are great, which supreme, changes from generation to generation, fashion to fashion.



The above couple of jeux remind me of the observation I once heard that a minister is one we pay to be virtuous for us: at least to dress and comport himself virtuously.

I've made hay with that in my variations on jazz artists:the jazz artist is one who dresses (and behaves) the way the public longs to dress but doesn't dareOf course my beloved jazz has been co-opted by that egregious rockIt wasn't so bad when it was just R&B: R&B was part of jazzNote: speaking of our paying jazz musicians to be drunks and junkies and to get syphilis in our stead, don't forget that jazz was originally whore house music. (Above all don't forget that whores was about all that Blacks were allowed to be.) In fact, the etymology of jazz traces it to the West African crios of the age of expansion for fuck.

Thus, jazz music was the music the white patrons of New Orleans whore houses fucked by.

I didn't know till Ken Burns' wonderful documentary that pianists like Jellyroll Morton had a peep hole into the whores' rooms so they could know when to crescendo, when to pianoroll.

You realize further of course that Jellyroll's very name means pussy.

Man alive, how that cat used minor VI / diminished VI progressions! Minor IIs too.



AuthorityThere is no authority. Only evidence: evidence processed by theory, the theory tested by falsification.

Substituting the expert for the expertise seems to be an indelible characteristic of kleptocracy. A society which would chose reason as a survival tool must demote all human authority to "opinion: probably politically motivated."

Notice: and remember: Human authority has a poor record with regard to truth.

That includes human scientific authority. Science is our best chance. Therefore it's essential that scientists remember the ideal humility of their art. Science priests are the last thing we need.



Kleptocratic authority is incapable of understanding what is said to it, incapable even of imagining that it ought to understand. No: such "authority" is the teacher. Authority has no need to learn.




Dozens coming




Theology: the kind of cosmology, older than science, where the imagination plays with unnatural causesCosmology:what happens to theology after science buds and orthodoxy slips a bit

The Picasso of 1985

paralleling Knatz.comPersonal / Stories / Theme / Business2009 10 31

The Picasso of 1985

Short version: Early 1975: I was making an art presentation to the Brewster Gallery in Greenwich Village. I'd been chatting with Jerry Brewster while turning the graphics in my portfolio, telling stories about the artists, detailing sales results so far, both my sales, and my clients' resales, when another art salesman barged in. The newcomer didn't know Jerry, had no appointment: he just ignored my prior position and blurted, "I've got the Picasso of 1985!"
Jerry let a smile flicker, and answered, "Good. Bring him to me in 1984."
Then he turned his attention back to me as the oaf realized that he had been dismissed, his greatest artist in the world unseen.

Details: In 1970 I founded the Free Learning Exchange, Inc., following Ivan Illich's saintly genius in trying to offer the public a cheap low-tech internet by which that public could sidestep regulation into freedom: any community with a cybernetic bulletin board of human and inanimate resources, together with both interest matching services and feedback on quality, on behavioral irregularies, could recreate the ancient marketplace into a new Phoenix of liberty, upgrading interfering regulatory government into direct cybernetic democracy at the same time: Congress was designed for representatives to renew information from their constituency annually; with networked cybernetics opinions can be updated at the speed of light. In 1973 my wife stopped paying the bills and kidnapped our son: a handy way of not having to discuss his education with the deschooler. I had to produce income myself, and, having sworn off teaching in the university system, and with no time to find a position even were I willing to break my vow, I took a shit job in a graphics gallery which palmed reproductions as technically "original." In a month I was director of the company's Madison Avenue gallery, and by 1974 artists were clamoring for me to represent them directly. Thus, late 1974 saw me cross from the Atlantic to the Pacific and back as I embodied PK Fine Arts, Ltd., and early 1975 found me back in the 'Apple, schlepping my portfolio into the Brewster Gallery in Greenwich Village.

I knew Jerry Brewster after a fashion: we'd mutually seen each other in the Whitehorse Tavern, way west on Hudson and 11th, not far from his place on 7th just below 14th. So, I'd stopped by let him know that I was in the business, had some good new artists. When I phoned and said now would be a good time for me, he summoned me in. Fancy art galleries may have back rooms with space adequate for an artist (or rep) to make a presentation, but I can testify that there aren't any in the level of the business I'd entered. But Jerry's no-space was luxurious compared to the no-space in most low-to-middle-end galleries and frame shops. I was hawking stuff from two to three figures with only a token item or two in the lowest four figures: Jerry had art at two and three figures but also had some items in four to five figures. (Jerry would soon open a Madison Avenue branch intended to specialize around five figures: Miro, for example: lithographs for $18,000 to $24,000: early 1975 remember.) (Jerry told me, "It's just as had to sell some 7x9 chatchka for $89.95 as it is to sell a Picasso for $30,000. I'd rather sell the Picasso." Understand: at those prices, again early 1975, we were talking about multiples only: lithographs, etchings ...

Jerry half-recognized me, realized that I had some sense of what I was saying. I'm confident further that Jerry recognized that I was tilling ground for an ongoing business relation; not trying to squeeze a quick sale so I could have lunch. The above story occurred. Now you see it in its setting. I can now add additional reflections:

Jerry bought nothing from me that day. Much better he explained to me that his sister did all his buying: and she had the checkbook: once she made a decision, she'd write the check, then and there. I returned many times over the years. Gertrude would buy, and sometimes reorder within days. One new lithograph I sold her was framed and put in the window that evening, and was sold to a customer waiting for her to open in the morning.

I saw little of Jerry after that. He spent his time up on Madison Avenue, super busy, super important: and probably frantic to pay the rent: you have to sell a lot of Miro to meet that nut. But one day he happened to be back down in the Village. I reminded him of our first meeting in his gallery, and quoted him to himself: "Good. Bring [this Picasso] to me in 1984." Jerry looked pleased. "Gosh. I didn't know I was that smart," he joked.

I love this story because it illustrates that there is no intrinsic value in business. A Picasso has no value because it's a Picasso, because it's beautiful, historically important, because it's challenging, excellently rendered, inconceivably conceived, because it makes your mind all withershins ... No, it's valuable only if you can resell it at a profit: regularly enough to pay the rent, and move uptown, and then to Mt. Vernon, and then to Scarsdale ...

I here repeat something I said to great artist Will Barnet in 1973, the year before this story. I told this at K., but K. got purged, so here it is again: I said that art had three values.
  1. the value to the artist in making it
  2. the value to the observer in looking at it
  3. the market value
and that the three had no necessary relation to each other. Will said, "Amen."

PS: I don't think Jerry Brewster actually used the Yiddish term "chatchka." I have though sold to WASPS in the business who did use that term: and so do I.

Sunday, October 25, 2009

pk: Censored

All along my writing hasn't been published. Where the writing is incompetent, that's a form of aesthetic cultural hygiene; where the writing is original in expression as well as ideas, that's a form of censorship: cultural sterility: a society subtracting itself from a yearing for survival, for quality. Majorities routinely stick cultures in the mud: evolution routinely sends mutants, independents, god, saints, geniuses ... to get stomped on. But sometimes a little of the god gets though: though only improbably, panting uphill, where the Nazis, the hawks, the morons ... the conventional are in control.

But as of February 2007 I am also officially censored, by federal court order. Getting arrested by a tag team of the county sheriff and the FBI on 2006 October 13 stopped me from writing and posting to the web. But that's small potatoes compared to the kind of censorship I'd been enduring all my life: since childhood, before puberty: probably well before puberty, but I just don't remember my childhood at quite the resolution that I remember my adulthood.

My family accomplished the equivalent of censorship by never understanding what my words or actions had hoped to convey. Neither did my church, my school, my friends.

As a kid my messages were not unique: I was just trying to be on the side of various abstractions: Jesus, Christ ... equality, democracy ... Sound conventional? Hell, I thought so. But no; it proved radical: in all cases. Or, it proved incommunicable: past age six, or eight. As a child my boyhood friends also wanted to be "good": to stand up for "right." But then, no. It proved that they just wanted more money, better grades, a new car ... the other guy's girl ... I too wanted more money, and the other guy's girl: but not as much as I wanted to sacrifice my life, my security ... for my fellow man.

(Note: now I wouldn't buy human redemption for a penny; but I'll still sacrifice all for the biosphere, for DNA ... for evolution.)

This is just a draft: and I have to get offline. So for now I'll just quick detail the fed and my family's role in my official censorship:

In the summer of 2006 I launched a new domain: AgainstHierarchy.org. I intended to move all of my deschooling files (materials from my Free Learning Exchange, Inc., my analyses of civilization as kleptocracy ...) to AH.org. Once a few basic introductory files were up, I concentrated on linking my stories of my own compulsory education, and built those links to include my stories of my university education, and my university teaching, up to and including my offering of a low-tech low-cost internet in 1970. I analyzed my experience with universities on both sides of the lectern as fraud. I gave my graduate school a particular my indictments. The I wrote a black satire, the most vicious yet of my life, warning my graduate English Department, that I didn't intend to die broke and anonnymous. They should see the sands of wasted time as running out for them. Either address my indictments, or get a bloody nose. (Note: I've never bloodied anyone's nose that I can think of. I am the last person in the world to go around bloodying noses. Cops, feds ... priests, nuns ... teachers, journalists bloody noses all the time. In short for the sake of my ironies, I pretended to intend to become One Of Them!

The descendants of the morons who didn't know how to read my graduate papers complained to the FBI: and I got handcuffed, interrogated by a team of morons even stupider and more deaf than my teachers, stripped and refrigerated in the jail, then tortured the worst when the public defender made it clear to me that though he personally understood what I was saying (he really did seem to, the most intelligent lawyer I've ever encountered), that he would do nothing to help me communicate any of my explanations to a jury. He's stand to the side while I had anything but a fair trial, the jury made rabid by fear of terrorists (other than themselves and their bomb dropping government).

I was told that the court would demand that I remove the couple of files at AgainstHierargy.org/NYU/ that talked of bloody noses. I wasn't ready to cooperate in any such thing; but I would do Anything to get back home and report my new experienes online. That's how they got me: with threats of continued silencing.

But: After they got from me the degree of cooperation they sought, the just outright censored the whole of AgainstHierargy.org/NYU/: dozens of files, only two specified as offending.

Once in jail I asked my son to close my bank account, then to also have my utilities disconnected. He did. He got the bank to transfer my remaining two cents to him: after which his wife, Nathalie, paid my bills: where the bill came in the forwarded mail; she did not pay bills that came by email. My email, though the location and password were made known to my son, was not checked.

Thus: a court order hit APlus.net, my host for my five domains: PKImaging.com, Knatz.com, InfoAll.org, Macroinformation.org, and AgainstHierary.org to disable AgainstHierargy.org/NYU/.

Exactly what happened then I can only speculate. Communication with APlus.net is as bad as communication with the Motor Vehicle Bureau. Communication with my son and his wife is slightly better, but only slightly. Thank goodness I'd asked bk to back up my data at APlus.net to a CD. He had. The FBI stole my computers (and who know how much else of my records: I'd need a staff and a budget to check for all that might be missing). After my trial, after the censorship order, I asked my son to see what data had been tampered with. I had nearly 2,500 text files, hundred of graphic files, and, counting art at PKImaging.com, thousands of art images online. bk reported that all of it was gone. APlus.net had destroyed everything!

APlus.net isn't even an American company! I think they're located in Canada. I speculate that APlus.net, sent me a bill, for $6.95, or for $12.95, renewing this or that domain name, this or that service, when to my bank account to help themselves, and found the account closed. I'd been their good client for over a decade. I bet they sent a few emails before they pulled the plug on me. I also bet that the total I was overdue was less than $50. Did they check on my health? Did they know I was being tortured and railroaded as well as censored? I don't know.

I know this. Once my domains were down, bk didn't put them back up!!!!

bk publishes my adopted daughter's website. bk in the past has sponsored my K. domains: I only moved them in with PKImaging.com after bk lost control of the machine had had all of our data on. Why didn't bk republish my persecuted files? the ones not censored: the all but a dozen?

I don't know. My communication with my son have never been much better than my communications with my wife, or my sister, or my mother: and I say so. Knatz.com materials were not flattering to my family. So they kept their hands in their pockets while I got persecuted.

Hey, it's not everybody who can claim to have something so vivid in common with Judas! and with St. Peter ...

Miscellaneous pk Stories

from Knatz.comPersonal / Stories2000 09 20

Miscellaneous pk Stories
First: 1961 or so:
"Paul, you're an interesting person," says my fellow worker. "I don't think I can stand it."I'm out of college, in limbo, waiting to be drafted. My venture in one business with my college partner was a disappointment: I'm treading water with what started as a part time job at full time pay with my partner's brother at New York Trust Bank. Trust merges with Chemical and the situation degenerates. The Trust team did the work in four hours and went home. Under Chemical domination we had to put in the eight hours: so why be efficient? But the army took me from an increasingly hellish limbo and put me straight into hell.1955 or so
"Paul, you're the only one in the whole bunch I can have a real conversation with."The point is: that was the only serious conversation Dick and I ever had. I guess one was enough for him.1979"Paul," says a girl friend, "You make other people look shabby."
I'd been well dressed when she first saw me, but by the time she said it, I don't think she meant just my appearance. Whatever she meant, I approve the line intellectually and spiritually. This latter story got expanded into an independent Knatz.com module. K. got censored, tag teamed by the fed (and my family), my fans standing by, silent. I'll remount K. when and if I can: my parole thug has warned me not to.
The nature of my getting censored, with mention of my family's involvement, needs its own post: coming up next.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

pk Training

from Knatz.comPersonal / Overview / Trainingstarted 1995

Indoctrination Central

I began seriously developing my personal home page in 1995 and at the time I intended my "deschooling" activities to play a major role. (They have, but other likewise important things have crowded up against that intention: now I'm forever trying to clear traffic jams.) This section on my training began well enough, organized into

Religious Training
Secular Training
and spining off files on
Church & State
&
Brain Washing.

The modules I'd intended to follow never matured properly because something in many ways better happened: the subjects jumped to my Teaching Section: cropping up in what came to be my Thinking Tools section [see pkTools blog], my Society (and its Pathologies) section [see IonaArc blog] ...
Now I recreate the Training part of my personal Overview in this my PaulKnatz blog.

Notice one central cluster of considerations throughout: my teaching was ignored in the 1960s, I was illegally fired from my teaching post in the late '60s, my university proved unwilling-or-unable to follow my doctoral thesis: so I joined Ivan Illich and his deschooling movement, offering to become the world's cybernetic librarian, networking the public, offering an alternative social information system that could have protected us, had we so chosen, from government, from industry, from our all-devouring, bankrupting, trust in "school" as a panacea. Now we'll never survive the crush of the bureaucracy we've allowed to parasitize us.

The fed censored me. Knatz.com and InfoAll.org, my deschooling domain, fell in a domino effect. Kill Jesus, jail Peter, and Matthew and Mark don't write their gospels right away. But here I'll recreate the above mentioned sections ASAP.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

PK Vita: Chronology Selected

from Knatz.comPersonal / Overview / Chronology2008

pk drawing (Paul Knatz)
Selected Chronology

c. 1965:
  • Started thinking about art as complex information: increasingly distinguishing data from information

  • First noticed Shakespeare's juxtaposition of the redundancy of the Fair Love and the oxymoron of the Dark Lady as a meta-oxymoron

    Simultaneously noticing an analogy between their contrast and the ageless struggle between Realism and Nominalism, between authority and experience
  • 1969:
  • Short stories found level of invention still not fathomed by publishers or public: for exampleFirst Week [see PaulKnatz blog]
  • 1970:

  • Encountered Ivan Illich and his models for Learning Webs in Deschooling SocietyFounded the Free Learning Exchange, Inc., emphasizing that the public networking of learning opportunities likewise mapped the public networking of all public informationAny public information system that doesn't note all the information is fraud: easily falsified (if civilized humans could only be got to pay attention). (Licensing teachers disempowers parents, licensing doctors dis-empowers all other (unlicensed) healers ...
  • 1982 ...:

  • NovelsLike my short stories, (like my scholarship,) my novels match contrasting abstractions: God / Lucifer, entropy / negentropy, heaven / hell, evolution / extinction, learning / inertia ...
  • 1995:

  • Knatz.com
  • 1999:

  • Invented MacroinformationWhile my Macroinformation.org remains a victim of federal censorship, see my Macroinformation blog: http://macroinformation.blogspot.com
  • 2004:Spun Knatz.com sections off into new independent domains: deschooling materials went to InfoAll.org; macroinformation materials went to Macroinformation.org.

    Lost my beloved friend, helper, patron: Catherine. She decided that 96 was old enough, and took off: orthogonally.
    2006:I added a new domain: AgainstHierarchy. The NYU sections collected all my complaints against my fraudulent graduate education, and In a masterpiece of post-Swiftian irony I told NYU that they were running out of time in which to take responsibility. On the fine morning of October 13 I went to the door to try to help a man who appeared confused and lost: the sheriff's men teamed up with an FBI posse in flak jackets, armed with assault weapons, put me on the ground, trussed me, and made off with me, leaving the armed thugs to steal my computers, my back-up disks, and to go through any of my personal records they felt like. I'd told NYU that I still held documents in evidence against them: nothing like interfering with evidence.2007:A federal court censored all my NYU materials. In fact all my internet files got destroyed: 5,000 of them, including my art gallery. Some of my materials are personal, but most of my web publications are public services.

    If Americans, and the world, remain ignorant of how institutions, including universities and governments behave, it's not my fault. It's true over my struggling body: and mind.
    2008:After thirteen months (of a fifteen month sentence) I was cast out onto the street, broke, but not broken. I'll republish as soon as I trust I can without getting assaulted again.
    2008 04 16

    I developed this section in 1995, expanded it a bit around 2001, and had done little to update it at my arrest in 2006. Now there's a great deal to add. Bear with me.

    Email me and I'll tell you how you can help.

    Paul Knatz Chronology

    from Knatz.comPersonal / Overview / Chronology1995

    pk drawing (Paul Knatz) Chronology

    A chronological curriculum vitae was one of the first things I mounted at my original home page, the precursor of Knatz.com. With Knatz.com still not recovered from federal censorship (or me from my arrest), I recreate some of the material here at blogs which have so far escaped the fed's grim scythe.

    The next post will be a Selected Chronology. It will be followed by a Detailed Chronology. It's the latter which will closely resemble the original 1995 version.

    Except that now, 2011 (April, May, June) I'm moving all pk domains materials to the PKnatz blog where I can control "page" menus, and sort by category! Post by post this blog is getting replaced, improved.

    Sunday, August 2, 2009

    Lex: Value vs. Drive

    pk Lexicon:
    Value versus Drive

    pk's lexicon is specialized. The dictionary, the encyclopedia, can give you only part of the meaning: you have to read pk, more than a little pk, to know the meaning; you could read lots of pk and still not know the meaning: if you don't read him "right."

    Value:The mother holds her baby. Is she paid to do so? Is she paid by the hour? Will she be promoted? (What role is there "beyond" motherhood that she could be promoted to?)

    The retiree catches a bass. He'd never fished before. But he experiences something his distant ancestors knew. But he didn't win a trophy, his name isn't in the paper, he's not running for President: is his experience worth anything?
    Drive:The mother leaves baby with the sitter. Dammit, she's going to win this mahjongg tournament!

    The executive gives up his fishing vacation (he's never yet had a single fishing vacation). The contract his company is chasing is just too important.
    "Value" is a term pk has long used in the present context; "drive" is not. The terms are formally paired-and-opposed by Jules Henry in his 1963 classic book Culture Against Man. pk arrived at the term "value," with great difficulty, in the middle 1960s, without having the benefit of yet discovering Henry's masterpiece. I came up with it in a (failing) effort to communicate what I meant by "God" to an aggressively deaf atheist: a very funny guy named Lev, a genius in some ways, but deaf-dumb-and-blind to religious emotion, religious metaphor. What was missing in his view that was present in mine? Value. His physics and mine were identical; but had opposite value.

    Jules Henry's pairing, value versus drive, dovetails with my response to Ivan Illich as the great Christian saint. Illich, Illich's Jesus, Illich's Roman Catholic Church (on its "good" face; unlike its bad face) represented value; blind progress, blind growth, blind expansion ... US imperialism in the Third World ... represented "drive."

    I'll proof this and add in some Henry quotes ASAP.

    Saturday, August 1, 2009

    Semantics: The Science of Meaning

    from Knatz.comTeaching / Thinking Tools / Semiotics1998 06 10

    Semantics: The Science of Meaning

    Mission: to promote the science of meaning, to emphasize the abstract nature of symbols — in contrast to concrete existence.

    Thought, TalkversusExistence, Events ...

    My module on Map / Territory confusions was the first semiotics module at Knatz.com, and was among the first Thinking Tools modules. It never got very far off the ground though. I was forever starting new drafts without ever finishing any old ones. That's a typical pk liability and its frequency of appearance is proportional to the importance of the subject: very important, very hard to do right. What I mount here today is a scrapbook from those drafts on semantics:

    Oh, you're just quarreling about semantics. How many times have you heard people say that? Hundreds? How many times have you said it yourself? Was ever a science held in such contempt by the general public?

    Semantics is the study of meaning, especially different meanings of a word. Is meaning trivial? Does ambiguity pose no problem? Are all meanings equivalent?

    (Ambiguity can solve problems! But not nearly so many as it creates.)

    Different specialties mean different things by semantics: linguists, psychologists, semioticians ... What I mean by semantics has been governed by Gregory Bateson and Alfred Korzybski. My start on what I have to say about it has already been up for months under the title Description vs. Thing. Bateson's additional step will come next: in harmony with Jung, he distinguished between Creatura, the world of life, and Pleroma, the world of extensional objects. We'd be wise to follow suit.
    1999 04 30
    I'll combine the two distinctions as follows:These days even car and burger ads talk about saving the planet. Does the planet need saving? Could we do it if we tried?

    I can't see how the planet is in any danger. The third rocky satellite out from the medium yellow star Sol has taken direct hits in the past by major asteroids and comets. Its orbit has barely wobbled. One day the star Sol with expand, swallowing the inner rocky satellites. I doubt that we'll be around to worry about the switch to an ambient temperature of one million degrees. Mankind doesn't have a very good chance of lasting another millennium let alone those additional hundreds of millions of years. No: any danger the planet is in is beyond our concern. The planet is mostly molten iron and nickel. A big billiard ball. A pebble we couldn't even see from another star. One of thousands of billions in the universe.

    The planet belongs in the class of Pleroma: things, objects ...

    What those meteor hits did do in the past was severely disrupt the biosphere: that thin skin of life which until recently was flourishing beautifully on and around the planet's crust.
    250,000 million years ago.
    70,000 million years ago.

    Is the biosphere in danger? Of being killed? That's not yet in our power and may never be.
    Is the biosphere in danger of being disrupted? That's already in our power: we've already done it.
    2009 08 01
    Can we, we humans, survive the disruption?

    I've switched sides. I used to hope we would survive: now I hope the biosphere survives: which I take to mean I have to root against us. Which I take to mean that I have to root against myself, hoping that all my hopes fail: that my writing will never be understood, that none of the messages God gave me to deliver ever get received: until it's too late. Then I hope they are received. I hope we'll see that we were offered an exit just as we burn to death in the fire.



    Lots more scrapbook remains to be mounted.

    Monday, June 15, 2009

    Home Page Top Page

    Knatz.com, toppled by the fed when they censored my AgainstHierarchy.org with its explanation of my anarchism, changed its top page every so often, then maintained an archive of old top pages. I now plan to resurrect some of those pages here, starting with those about me and how my biography reflects my philosophy (and visa versa).

    Best Dancer
    South Side High School, Class of '56

    pk at a Senior social, dancing with a non-seniorThe Dancer,
    Highlands Senior Social

    My high school named me "best dancer" despite the fact that I'd danced seldom since getting body-blocked by puberty! (That story was told, in part, at the destroyed K.) I forced myself to dance again by attending the Highlands Senior Center. I remembered a few steps, got back some of my muscle memory, recreated a bit of style: now I'm also teaching the ballroom and line dancing!

    The Board, led by my dear friend Ahn, elected me a member, and (at her suggestion) nominated me the above title: The Dancer. (Meanwhile others snort (and snipe at) the convicted felon!)

    (I met a fellow in the Palm Beach jail who recognized my name and introduced himself as a fan of mine: that is, of Knatz.com. Briefly, he told me that he'd first seen my name on a web site listing the ten "most dangerous" writers in America. I was listed in second place! (Evil! Imagine that! while unpublished!) He decided to see for himself, by actually reading what I'd actually written: and discovered "a hero"! "These guys should be applauding you," he said, indicating our follow prisoners (and the guards too). "If everyone read Knatz.com there would be no jails."

    Amen.



    This 2009 June I begin recreating some K. top pages here.

    For starters I'll post a spiritual portrait, then, Who (or What) is pk? ... followed by more previous K. Entrance pages. (Now moved to PKnatz.)



    Amen: except that you can't read Knatz.com! In proscribing AgainstHierarchy.org the fed (and pk's host, and pk's ex-family) destroyed all pk domains. Furthermore, in destroying AgainstHierarchy.org, the fed destroyed written proof of my innocence: they destroyed the document I was arrested for having written! Now we have only their distortions and misreadings of what I actually wrote and mounted. The fed destroyed the evidence! And then the fed threatened me with more jail if I re-post the truth!

    Don't worry: when I find the right place, and the right second, I'll remount it: with explanations: the author's own interpretation of his opus.

    If Shakespeare published his own reading of Hamlet, we would remain free to disagree with it; but we forfeit all claim to humanity if we ignore it: and deserve eternal hell if we destroy it.



    No: I'm suspending recreating Knatz.com here and am assembling it at PKnatz blog. That host's category and Page capacity is well suited to the complexities of K. structure.

    Monday, June 1, 2009

    Victim, Defender

    A neighbor did me a favor a while back. I hadn't known her at all before then, but I got to know her a bit thanks to the favor. She told me this story, I told her I wanted to retell it. I leave her named only by her given name, but she's welcome to authorize a full identification, as she will be invited to check and correct what I tell.

    Ruth lived alone but was frequently visited by her husband. He was living with other women, impregnating this and that one, but he'd visit Ruth, cajoling her for money. (They are both Jamaican, he rather obviously a RastaMan, with the 'dreads and all.)

    Ruth told me that once when he beat her she'd had him arrested! Pressed charges! Ah, but then she'd hired him a lawyer, paid more to get him off!

    Love. Go figure.

    Sunday, May 31, 2009

    Gang Rape

    I can't tell this story the way I would like to, it was told to me in confidence. I told the subject of the story that I wanted her blessing in retelling her story without identifying her. That permission she gave me.

    In brief, a young woman, twenty-two years old, was walking down a street in Indianapolis. Five men grabbed her and dragged her into an alley. All five raped her. The woman was blond, petite, and I don't doubt based on my present knowledge of her in her mid to later fifties, cute as hell. She was employed in construction, very strong she assured me. All construction workers there carried knives, she said. She did too: a switchblade.

    This petite gal, getting involuntarily gang-banged, got out her knife, flicked it open, wounded all five: killing two! The three survivors were betrayed by the wounds she inflicted, those three were later identified and apprehended. All three went to jail.
    2009 06 18
    Point of Fact: Yesterday the subject of the story told me that she'd seen my post while abroad and had added at least six paragraphs of additional details: names, descriptions, heights, weights, behaviors ... and a few additional facts. Notice, as of this date: those comments are not here!
    Others have also told me in person that they added comments at my blogs: all to no effect.
    My domains got censored. Somehow my blogs survived. Are my blogs being monitored? blocked? Also censored? Are YOU being censored? (Of course you are. That's what I started saying out loud in 1970, that's why I got arrested. That's why I'd been bottled and stoppered by the universities in the first place! I wouldn't have bothered to offer a cheap internet in 1970 if they hadn't!

    But to get to some of the additional details, I add those she was able to tell me here:
    Five guys rape her. She gets out her knife. She wounds all five. They gut her, leave her for dead in the alley.
    Two of the guys die, then and there. The remaining three are rounded up once she's rescued and revived, starts testifying. A third rapist, now hospitalized himself, proceedes to also die. So she killed three! Two, not three, go to jail. Three, not two, go to the bone yard.


    Again: five guys rape one little blond. She wounds all, kills two, sends the rest to jail. !

    But: they, while she was goring them, got her knife away from her, and gutted her with it, leaving her for dead in the alley. The next day some drunk found her, an ambulance came, and she's still here to tell about it — though she's much damaged. At age twenty-two our victim had much of the rest of her innards removed by the doctors. They cleaned out most of the rest of her guts, installed a colostomy.

    Today she has a little plastic vial instead of a large intestine. Electrodes buzz her when her substitute-colon is full and needs to be emptied. She's about to receive a plastic anus. Her body is still open so the surgeons can go in and out at their convenience.

    Much of the damage is of course mental. And then there's the chemical damage the doctors did: for thirty-four years now a jillion drugs have been prescribed for her, by dozens of different doctors, it being impossible for anyone to keep track of the drugs' incompatibilities, their side effects, the Gelstalt sum of their unpredictable combined side effects ...

    This gal is unbelievably cute and vivacious at fifty-six, you wouldn't think she was forty, yet several times in the months I've known her, I've seen her collapse and get carted off to the EM. The doctors want her to spend months at a Mayo Clinic in the north so they can try decipher all of her drugs and to wean her away from as many as they dare. (Her husband, a patient man from what I've seen, jokes that he'll have to take out a mortgage on her!)

    I'm posting this story as it is. I plan to show it to her and beg her to let me identify her, let her take some credit. This is a story that should be known by everyone: certainly by every woman, and by every man. We can't possibly have enough woman heroes these days, especially real woman heroes; as distinct from bullshit concocted by the media.

    I want to have her confirm or correct (and possibly expand on) the details here reported. I'd like her blessing in telling a few more details that I am confident of: the effect on me of the photographs she showed me taken after her first couple of attack-related operations.

    Hoping for her approval and her cooperation I now post this as it is. Come on, gal, say Yes.



    2009 06 18

    I think the subject is now glad that people are seeing her story. She may yet stand up and take a bow.

    But the main point remains: a "weaker vessel" defended herself! In the modern world! where everything conspires to make us dependent, while pretending to encourage independence: the schools, the churches ... the police, the firemen ... the doctors ...

    We need specialists to a point, but not past the point where we cease to be whole or complete persons ourselves. I'm afraid though that nearly all of us passed that point long before we were born. History passed that point for us.

    But if we exercise independence even while we're dependent, who knows, we might become a little bit stronger: despite the experts who don't allow us to move our own limbs without their approval.



    2009 06 19

    See today's StraightDope.com on the subject of self-defense, whether resisting an attack helps statistically, at what cost:
    http://www.straightdope.com/columns/read/2874/has-martial-arts-training-ever-helped-anybody-defeat-a-mugger

    Sunday, April 5, 2009

    Art Publishing

    Publish: to put a work into a material form for the marketplace. If a writer composes a poem and a newspaper prints it, that's publication. If the writer pens a novel and a business prints it, binds it, distributes copies to individual book stores, that's publication. If an artist paints a painting and a gallery hangs it on a wall where the public can see and buy it, that's publication of a sort. If an artist conceives of a graphic, a work on paper, say an etching, then prints a proof, then shows the etching to a customer who buys it, the artist is acting as publisher: because the etching is potentially a multiple original. When Rembrandt pulled an etching and signed it and sold it, he'd estimate how many good prints he could get before the etched grooves degenerated, the image lost clarity: say 7. So: he'd sign the etching and number it 1/7.

    Modern printing allows plates to be made that will bear up under many impressions. So the art business, artists and galleries and fine art publishers, arbitrarily limit the number of prints. Editions of 10 or fewer used to be common. Then editions of say 30 became common. Then the Twentieth Century made editions of 250, 300, 500 common.

    The Twentieth Century then also introduced the practice of prodding artists to sign reproduction of already famous images and call them "originals": Norman Rockwell, LeRoy Neiman, for example. The term original was degenerating: rapidly. I doubt it will ever recover.


    This subject deserves a better treatment than I just sketched. I'll keep at it: make a good one eventually.

    Fine Art publishing is an unusual business. The terms can be very confusing. People in the business can be confused by their own terminology. Don't expect help from lawyers: they don't understand it either. Defining things never helped much in my case: the people I was trying to communicate with, Gail and Murray Bruce, for example, my supposed partners in Gail Bruce imagery, would follow what I said for a moment, then revert to whatever understanding suited their own agenda (of raking profits and the hell with meaning, promises, ethics).

    Let me come at it via examples. I, my company, PK Fine Arts, Ltd., published GH Rothe's mezzotint Interlude.
    Gatja had worked the image up on the plate and proofed it, showed it to me. I liked it, said I wanted to publish the whole edition: meaning, I was promising her to pay her for one hundred singed and numbered mezzotint prints, plus a few additional artist proofs. She, as artist, could retain a few additional artist proofs for her own use: selling them, giving them as presents ... Artists are supposed to make no more than 10% of the edition size as artists proofs, but that's a limit much abused in practice.

    I wanted to bring Interlude out at around $75 or $80, then stabilize the retail price at $100, then raise the price once I'd sold more than fifty of them. I don't remember what I promised to pay her: probably $10 each, with it understood that I could pay her over time so long as she got a fair chunk soon: a few hundred at least.

    Dance of Tom I wound up paying her $20 each for the bulk of the edition. At first I'd paid her 25% of retail, when I could, after the customer's check had cleared (and after I'd paid Gail Bruce more than I owed her so she could deceive her husband about our "success"). In the case of that small mezzotint, Gatja had offered it to publishers, been rejected, then consigned parts of the edition (250 numbered prints plus 25 or so artist proofs) to various publishers: Lublin, Nabis ... After years she was still sitting with the bulk of them. As little cash as she was getting from me, it was still more than she'd ever gotten from anybody else (though Lublin had once given her a $1,000 check: for which they got tons of stuff).

    Saturday, April 4, 2009

    pk & GH Rothe



    Interlude
    mezzotint by GH Rothe


    When Gail Bruce asked me to represent her art I was already friends with Gatja Rothe, the mezzotint master. Gatja had already consigned to me a portfolio of her mezzotints in hope that as Director of the Circle Gallery on Madison Avenue I'd be able to sell them to Circle chief Jack Solomon. I did show them to Jack, Jack didn't buy them. (Thanks to my having the art on hand I'd been able to sell one on a payment plan to the lead ballet dancer of the Met.) I wouldn't have let Gail talk me out of Circle Gallery and onto the street quite so easily had it not been for the additional backing of Gatja. The moment I announced that I was thinking of going independent, I had not only a couple of Gail Bruce serigraphs in my portfolio, I had Gatja's lifetime production of mezzotints, a few Ed Solol serigraphs, spare art by Will Barnet, and dozens of other artists who suddenly appeared out of nowhere to fill up my sales portfolios.

    Dance of Tom
    mezzotint by GH Rothe



    Audience Favorites
    mezzotint by GH Rothe


    A Note on Money

    When I find time I will explain how Gail Bruce promised me financing but the only person ever to actually give me any was Gatja: she bought my PK Fine Arts. Ltd.-mobile: a new VW bus. I paid her $100 a month, when I had $100, for years. Gatja waited and waited, while I fed her money to Gail Bruce, uncomplaining, I'd explained "why" to her. By the end of the 1970s I'd paid Gatja most of what I owed her: though what I owe her is debatable: Gail promised me backing, but actualy only delivered art, and there only in sluggish dribs and drabs. A lot of time and money was wasted: a lot of earn-able money was not earned: no financial lubrication.

    But Gatja too sabotaged me as well as supported me. I drove to LA in the winter of 1974, taking PK inventory to sell out west. Gatja mailed me more art c/o Texas. I phoned her from Texas to tell her I'd received it: she told me — after buying my car for me and filling it with art — that I couldn't sell her art in California: she'd just sold an exclusive to Ed Weston!

    Can you imagine. She invested in me, then pulled the rug out!

    Ed and I were under each other's feet ever after. He could afford it; I couldn't. Gatja hurt me, herself, Gail ... all my artists.

    Then again, think of this: Gail's husband was unsure about investing in his wife's art. He was unsure about investing in his wife's trusted dealer: me. Murray was always looking for investments. He made tons, lost tons. He could have invested in Gatja Rothe! and didn't. Armond Hammer, Hammer Graphics, bought Gatja away from all of us: me, Ed, Hugh McKay, all of us. Murray Bruce could have had big pieces of those millions. But then I've always been surrounded my morons.

    Notes on the Images

    I put Interlude at the top. I love this one best as it is the first Rothe mezzotint I ever published entirely by myself (and sold out entirely by myself). Dance of Tom Gatja had done years before I met her. A zillion other publishers had had their hands on it before I took over the bulk of the edition. Gatja gave me time, all the time I needed, to pay. I promised her $20 each. The first guy she'd offered them to declined to pay her $1! I sold the last of them at $1,000 retail. My own print was stolen: along with most of my framed Rothes, all dedicated to me: my Interlude 1/100 for example.

    Audience Favorites was one of two editions I sold to a mail order catalogue out of Baltimore. That secondary publisher ordered 50 each. I made the editions 100. Gatja sold me the remaining 50 and 50: again, on time: again all the time I needed.

    Friday, April 3, 2009

    pk, Gail Bruce, more

    Resurrecting Knatz.com / Personal / Stories / Theme / Business / Bruce

    Summary first, details follow, followed over time by lots of details:

    When Gail Bruce first asked me to be her graphic arts consultant and rep she promised me, indeed, she gave me, a lifetime exclusive. She shushed my protests that I had no capital, assuring me that her husband had plenty of capital. "Don't worry about money," she promised. But then, as early sales began to trickle in, she asked me to give her the lion's share of the income: so her husband would feel we were getting somewhere. Years later, after I'd paid her several times what I owed her, postponing payment to other, better artists, she was still asking me to pay, always more, so her husband could feel like he could afford to give up his lucrative commercial making and try for Hollywood film making: every commercial director wants to be Hitchcock instead. But my cheating on her behalf, lying at her request, had caught up with me. Other artists too wanted to be paid: and I had never paid myself anything.

    When I showed Murrary Bruce the cancelled checks proving that I'd paid the Bruces $30,000 more than I owed, he ordered Gail not to give me any more art. He denied all our agreements: and he had the lawyers, the accountants, the BigMac cash flow. (He did reimburse the overpayment, too late for the capital to restore my company.) Gail answered no more calls, no more letters. Last time I saw her, in the Village, on the street, her art career ruined as well as mine, this former cover girl looked very old. Gail Bruce looked like a witch. But ever since I withdrew my endorsement, her art lay dead in the galleries. I cast a pall over it, a hex. She looked like a witch; I can actually be a witch.


    This story begins a series of stories about Paul Knatz, Gail Bruce, and Gail Bruce art and graphics. I'm the one who made her famous. She's the one who more than any other started me on my own business. She's also the one who sabotaged me and my business more than any other: and that's saying something! I'd given her a glowing setting, I reset her as the wicked witch: galleries couldn't give her work away.

    When I say "Gail Bruce" I'm likely to be referring more to a style than to the woman. Meanings will mix no matter the reference.

    First, here's a scan of a photograph of the painting we first published as a graphic:


    Now here's the artist. We used this image for publicity in the later 1970s.


    Now, understand, when I met Gail Bruce she was a talented amateur artist. I introduced her to Charles Cardinale, Fine Creations, NYC: master serigrapher. What I sold as Gail Bruce to the graphics galleries was a material wedding of Gail's style and Charlie's craft. Here's Charlie posed by the Gail Bruce Pier Fisherman after adding the final color.


    Understand most of all: Gail's paintings, her vision, her humor, the psychological depth of her seemingly simple images was entirely hers when we met, and when Charlie first cut the screens to print White Hat. But the images that then graced galleries across the country and around the world, from 1974 and onward through the 1970s was the work of a team: Gail Bruce, Paul Knatz, and Charlie Cardinale. Her mind made the image, Charlie made the image professional, graceful, and clean, and pk sold the hell out of them: convincing ordinary frame shops to promote them, not only to carry them but to display them prominently.

    By the end of the 1970s our business marriage was proving to be betrayal managed by incompetence. Whereas I first promoted them, I then hexed them. Whereas I had kindled cheer in the gallery, I now cast gloom. Gail Bruce, the style, dropped like a rock from America's attention. Former fans who had made money on them would make a face and say, "You still have those!?"

    Details will follow. As well as more examples.


    After I had failed to explain to the draft board that I was a pacifist, after I had failed to explain to my graduate school the macroinformation in Shakespeare's Sonnets, after I had failed to get my inspired fiction published, after I had offered a cheap low-tech social networking data base, a prototype internet, and after the society had stood idle as my wife kidnapped our son — essentially so I could have no influence over his schooling, resourceless, all but homeless, I got a job: in the art business.

    more coming, as promised


    More Gail Bruce:


    Dakota


    Ballet Dancers


    Beach Kids


    Notes on the images:

    At PKImaging.com and at Knatz.com I controlled the size of the digital images precisely. I currently having difficulty doing that here via Google.com. Those images that are too large to fit the blog column width I'm still wrestling with the code for. At worst I'll resize them in PhotoShop.

    White Hat: I had to retouch the scan considerably. Gail's painting used large areas of solid color, very primary, very two-dimensional. Understand: this is a scan of the painting; not of the graphic which first established her as a graphic talent: an investment or sorts.

    The artist: The scan is of an offset print, not the photograph: hence the graininess.

    All of the scans are retouched. PKImaging.com, my online gallery, destroyed at my censoring by the US, never displayed art that wasn't retouched by me. My retouches though were always then approved by the artist. Most artists that I dealt with had little idea about digital imaging.

    Dakota (the toddler seated at the piano) is of Gail's daughter.

    Ballet Dancers and Beach Kids were published as tax shelters. I got Gail to sell the copyrights, the buyers gave me distribution rights and both of us some cash. Charlie just got paid for the printing. He was a functional partner but not a financial partner: he got paid upfront: if Gail or I took a bath, Charlie had been paid.

    Final Color:
    The final color in serigraphy is always black. You can look at the printer with a dozen colors down, look again with eighteen colors down; but until the black goes down few, even professionals, will see "anything." I could; but I soon learned to keep my vision to myself: or I wouldn't sell anything!


    Other Notes: "I got Gail to sell the copyrights": If our efforts had gone anything like Gail promised, her promises made by her in her husband's name, but then revised without discussion by her husband — talented, a money machine, but ignorant: and far from bright, I never would have permitted her to sell a copyright. But Murray Bruce routinely sabotaged (unaware) his own (non-filmic) enterprises.

    You'll see as I tell the story.